It’s been quite a summer. Quite a hard summer.
But I made it! I accomplished most if not all of my summer goals, and now I am headed back to my second year at Morehouse College, ready to rock out. I often categorize my life into “Professional” and “Personal”. This summer, the Supreme has tried and tested both, turned them upside down, and set them for a fresh start:
Professional: (1) My internship was hell but I rocked it and showed myself how strong I was. (2) My finances at the end of the summer brought stress to the household and not only were a lot of my plans—like bringing my car to school—put on hold but were eliminated altogether. Parking tickets, towing expense, speeding ticket, and overdrawn checking account. In short, I learned I’m not a kid anymore and my family isn’t rolling in dough. (3) I am riding in this car back to Atlanta with the knowledge that it’s time for me to man up and take responsibilty because my parents aren’t going to be able to carry all of the weight any more. I have to handle my business academically and financially, and come out at the end of this year looking like a self-sustained man rather than a college kid depedent on his barely-making-it household.
Personal: (1) I started off in a long term relationship that I was willing to fight for and make work this time. I faught and worked, but the odds seemed to be against me. However, to the very end, I did not comprimise my values or back track into any bad habits. (2) When the time came for me to end it, I did so with surity and without drama. I trucked through the get-over-it period with my head held high and learned the value of my friendships, taking the time to nurture them instead of over-induldge myself in the pain of a broken heart. (3) At the very end of the summer, I gained the epiphany that a past is not the same as history, and after the lesson has been learned, you must turn your face back to the horizon and keep on walking toward the sun. Though, I do have to add that the Supreme definitely put some tokens of blessings in these past two weeks. I gained a bestie and found a little bit of Gold at the end of the rainbow—both of which were a little difficult to part with.
But the fact of the matter is, I am leaving all of that in my rear view mirror. I walk to edge of this plank, and am trying hard not to look behind me at the rough summer I had or the mysterious dangers that lurk beneath. I am staring and smiling at the sun setting over the horizon. In the glow over the ocean I can see the lessons learned—like letting go is as easy as trusting your own heart, like life’s a climb but the view is great, like give your all even when it feels like you have nothing left to give, or (my favorite) just go—and the alliances I’ve gained along the way—like my new cousin, Jasmin, my coworkers, Nick and Kiara, Andrew, my future wife lol, new Vincent, and a couple of mentors here and there.
I take all this in and say a prayer of graditude before 3…2….1….GERONIMO!!!!
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