In a Room Painted with Sky

I exist in a large, large space. And I have absolutely no ambitions of filling it up. My small me in a large space is significant while I observe big people puffing themselves up to fill up the large space only making it uncomfortable for all of the other big, big people. I exist in a room painted with sky so that the parameters are so ambiguous that I actually have no idea where, when, or what I am in relation to those in the room. I only exist to myself in myself, constantly building myself, taking a moment here and a glace there to see that wow, I exist in a large, large space.

That was written last semester.

This summer—this blog—was spent in attempts to increase my size, to puff myself up because maybe I actually deserved to be one of those big people. Unastonishingly, I’ve deflated. A friend of mine brought to mind the Woody Allen quote: “If you want to make God laugh, tell him about your plans.” Luckily for me, the Supreme only chuckled as he nudged me closer to the path I am supposed to be on. Thank you for joining on me on this ride, as misguided as it may have been. I learned a lot this summer and how appropriate that I entitled this journey my “transition” into 22star14. That’s what this year is turning out to be: one gigantic transition. Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on your point of view), as I board the plane to elevate to a higher level, there’s a lot of baggage I’m having to leave behind. I foresee a very lame, empty semester. However, I am incredibly excited about how this story will end. This is the last of the artist formerly known as 22star14 lol, but hopefully not of this October Kind of Lover!

Ttfn.